Monday, November 23, 2009
My friend Cath posted this on her blog and I just had to - it is an amazing song.....
My friend Cath posted this on her blog and I just had to - it is an amazing song.....
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Where has the time gonewell the days are drifting along towards the end of the year very quickly!! Seem to be getting the social calendar full for end of year festivities and it is so nice to have some amazing friends who have opened their homes to the child and myself (as well as the slow learner brother) for spending Christmas with them. My parents are away and so it will just be the three of us, but it will be lovely!!
So happenings - the 'letter' has been started to start the settlement process. That is a scary thing as I know that there will be huge anger from the ex about that. But - you move on eh? Apparently I am entitled to a bit and that will be a nice next egg for the future house loans etc. Very happy renting as I have never had a problem with that, however I am now responsible for the future of someone else and that can be daunting. Start swimming teacher training next weekend which will be great.....am kind of getting into the idea of becoming a private swim teacher!! Will start on the school kids next year and see how I go and I will never coach the child as I don't think that is right...am still absolutely terrified about getting into my bathers in front of everyone, but you get that!!
So other things - went to see Nickelback concert with Ian, Chelle's husband which was so cool!!! The child however decided to start throwing up around the time that I was supposed to get ready and she was supposed to be going to a school disco and then a sleepover!! The mum having her is a dr. and was fine to have her, she would perk up a bit and then flag a bit but wanted to go to the disco so I left her there feeling like the worst mother ever and got home to change with about 15 mins to spare before catching the train into the concert. Got there in time and then flew out again to be home in case she needed me. Was amazed how quickly I got out of the concert center and I think that I was on the second train out of there!! As I sat down on the train I got a message from the mum saying that everything was fine and that she were sound asleep and to have fun!! I think that I had used up all my adrenalin in the last 4 hours that I didn't have anything left to go back to the cas!! Came home and watched two episodes of Californication and fell asleep!! Worked well as I got up refreshed in the morning (had had only two drinks at the concert - do you know how much they cost - shit!!!) and got a heap of work done on the boat club website which I am quite proud of before picking up the child and having a lovely day today with her - weather has been fab. I even went out and did some gardening....well raked up some dead weeds, not a lot you can do with a sandpit but there are plans in the making there.
Tonight have been at a local pub with the child to see a friend play in a band for the first time. He was really good and I haven't been to a pub gig like that for years was great!! It felt bizarre walking in there with the child, however there were a heap of kids there that we knew so was good.
....and - had someone around for dinner last week and it was so nice. I didn't drink a lot and I made what I thought was a nice dinner (Spanish Mackerel, cous cous and asparagus, baked apples and cream cheese custard) and he stayed for ages and we just chatted heaps, no dead spots - you know those really uncomfortable moments when you think 'what should I say now??'. It was great. So......slowly slowly as Chelle says!!! But it was nice and if it is someone to go with a bar, concert etc then that will be really nice. He is tall too - well my height! Anyway - we shall see. I definitely have a different mind set to my younger days and yes that is cos I have the child, however I also think that it is cos I am looking for what is important and at the moment it is the child, family, friends......don't need anything else for the time being so am not looking......and I have batteries!
So plans?? Have a wedding to finish off this week now that I have the website looking a bit better, a couple of websites to get up and going, drinkies with the scrapping girls and quite a few Christmas functions which will be lovely!!
So not a lot else to report really......haven't done any scrapping although had three 10yr olds doing it on Friday night when they came for a sleepover. The child was so happy and they all seemed to have so much fun....it was great spending that time with them. But I have photos and I need to scrap......soon!!
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Hit a few stumbling blocks this weekend, but I think that I can move on from them!
Anyway.....
The car is going fine and I am starting to accept it way more. Working out that it is actually quite zippy and that we are getting to places that we need to. Don't arrive at the airport with more than one (small) bag and I can pick you up!! Think that I need to go back to the dealer cos the aircon is not getting cold. It is cooler to wind down the window!!
So Monday tomorrow.....the work week begins. In all seriousness I got nothing else! Except this afternoon I finally went down to the little wine bar that has opened around the corner. The Stanley is gorgeous and quaint if not slightly quirky. Taking the child in there for a drink after our bike ride was enjoyable and we could still get some gorgeous Flipside chips from next door. According to the child I wasn't drinking fast enough so she went outside onto the footpath and rode her bike, frequently making passes by the window with funny looks on her face reminding me that it was time to go. I am sure that I looked rather odd laughing at seemingly nothing, however it was very entertaining, and even though i didn't rush my wine (which was a beautiful Shiraz from Pemberton) it was slightly entertaining even to the other people lounging in the chaise lounges. Very decadent!!
Right so to bed with the promise to get up and walk. I think that I have healed from my fall, however I still have a huge lump on my hip so I think that I do need to finally seek medical help. Frequent punishment from the physio at work has resulted in the pain from the rib subsiding well. Like he said it is merely a crack, not a break, but with the added stress on my shoulders and mid back it was all culminating in something quite painful. Back on the band wagon I think. So it is Sunday - drinkfree until Thursday......will give it a try anyway.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
So just read this off one of the blogs that I visit occasionally (talking about Goddesses and all that here on this blog I might as well post from a definitive one!!) Goddess Leonie runs an amazing site with courses etc that I haven't done, but it is very Zen, Feng blah blah blah (quote Chelle) based!!
If tomorrow morning the sky falls… have clouds for breakfast.
If night falls… use stars for streetlights.
If the moon gets stuck in a tree… cover the hole in the sky with a strawberry.
If you have butterflies in your stomach… ask them into your heart.
If your heart catches in your throat… ask a bird how she sings.
If the birds forget their songs… listen to a pebble instead.
If you lose a memory… embroider a new one to take its place.
If you lose the key… throw away the house.
If the clock stops… use your own hands to tell time.
If the light goes out… wear it around your neck and go dancing.
If the bus doesn’t come… catch a fast cloud.
If it’s the last dance… dance backwards.
If you find your socks don’t match…. stand in a flowerbed.
If your shoes don’t fit… give them to the fish in the pond.
If your horse needs shoes… let him use his wings.
If the sun never shines again… hold fireflies in your hands to keep warm.
If you’re afraid of the dark… remember the night rainbow.
If there is no happy ending… make one out of cookie dough.
- Cooper Edens
If night falls… use stars for streetlights.
If the moon gets stuck in a tree… cover the hole in the sky with a strawberry.
If you have butterflies in your stomach… ask them into your heart.
If your heart catches in your throat… ask a bird how she sings.
If the birds forget their songs… listen to a pebble instead.
If you lose a memory… embroider a new one to take its place.
If you lose the key… throw away the house.
If the clock stops… use your own hands to tell time.
If the light goes out… wear it around your neck and go dancing.
If the bus doesn’t come… catch a fast cloud.
If it’s the last dance… dance backwards.
If you find your socks don’t match…. stand in a flowerbed.
If your shoes don’t fit… give them to the fish in the pond.
If your horse needs shoes… let him use his wings.
If the sun never shines again… hold fireflies in your hands to keep warm.
If you’re afraid of the dark… remember the night rainbow.
If there is no happy ending… make one out of cookie dough.
- Cooper Edens
Think that I need to take some of that on board!!
So my bets for the Melbourne Cup - Master O'Reilly (an old favourite and I wont blame you at all Ian!!), Alcopop cos you can't go wrong when you bet on alcohol! Roman Emperor cos it is a Bart Cummings and apparently he is a good trainer, and Warringah because if I don't back Damien and he rides a winner I will look like a twit. The child (need to find a good psuedo name for her to put on here) needs to pick hers and we are off to the TAB!!
Right so the first coffee is gone and the shower beckons. Have a great day all!
Monday, November 2, 2009
So can you let me know that this is coming through OK?? I know that it looks a bit corny but hey!! Maybe I need to channel my inner goddess warrior at the moment...........
.....and another glass of wine is in order
So another post so soon after the first one!!
I have no idea what has happened to my old template and I am having trouble changing it, but will work on it!! An old header keeps sitting on top of any template that I put in there!!
Think that I have turned a corner. Am starting to think a bit more about me and where I am at. On Friday we went to a Halloween party and the daughter was dressed as a zombie and I felt that I actually looked quite nice! Was a change from recent outings where she looks lovely and I feel like and think that I am looking like a zombie!! Last few mornings I have been up and gone for my walk - have yet to get to the gym but the bag is packed for it!! I have yet to get the whole 'alcohol free Sunday - Thursday'!! Social calender isn't allowing that at the moment!!
So some new clothes, earrings, bit of makeup, feeling nearly new.
My friends are definitely the mainstay in my days at the moment. Having a day off work today due to child's 'sore tummy' (that was amazingly gone by 10am) my friends turned up for morning tea and stayed for the day. I don't quite know what I would do without them at the moment. Mrs Doubtfire and the Witch are the most amazing ladies and it is always wonderfully uplifting being around them. And we proved today that we don't need alcohol or scrapbooking too occupy us when we are together.
As I am in the process of changing back to my maiden name I have just had an email from a dear friend who said 'nice to see the old surname and that you are young no more - does this mean that you are older??' - see friends like that I am going to make it through this just fine. It is also friends like I have just described who help to make the nights not so lonely. I was griping in the last post about being lonely at night, but this is the recovery time of my life. I don't need or actually want anyone in my nights at the moment. Definitely can't and wont bring anyone home in the evenings with the child here, that is just a big no-no for me. She doesn't need to query why I have men here late at night and I don't want her getting those thought processes happening that only a child can get. It is all about her at the moment (and me but I can take a back burner)
So we find the batteries (imagine what you will) and just enjoy life. Early morning walks, long morning teas, even longer lunches!! It is actually all quite lovely and nice and (certainly starting to be) easy. I am focusing more on my photography and getting some great work done for family shoots and really giving the time to perfecting my shots and not thinking about what is happening at home, what I have to do at home, what is or isn't waiting for me at home. That is the difference isn't it?? I am living in the moment!! I am allowing my child to live in the moment and we are having time for each other.
Right so Flash Forward is about to start so will go watch it.....
